shut down

Have you ever feel that you are so fucking useless? Keep angry to people without any reason? Just because you can't handle it So you try to solve it by having argument with others people  Is it will make it you feel better?
NOPE bitch!
Go and fuck yourself!

gain strength ; from tears

Heyyo. Im home. Anyone missing me? *krikk krikk krikk*. Seems like no body care about you . *dedaun bertebaran, bunyi angin menderu*

wifi kat rumah tengah laju dan ia sangat menyeronokkan yihaaa. im having my holiday rn. its not long holiday but i had done to make it as a long holiday. today [monday, 21st Sept] we suppose to have law class with Miss Finda. tapi sebab ramai dah balik and lia berjaya buat MoU dgn miss maka Miss setuju untuk buat kelas ganti naik cuti ni. rabu je ada kelas maka memonteng lah saya. ala bukan selalu

kelihatan sangat lama lia tak riang ria update entry di sini ek? haha. seriously weh, kehidupan sem 3 bapakkk busy wehh. lia hanya balik sebulan sekali dan ianya berlaku hujung bulan sahaja. hahahahaha. sokay, belajar kan. takpe Lia :)

i have a lots of thing would like to share with you but lia tatau nak cite mana satu. hahaha. SHIT SELALU STUCK BILA TGH SDP MENAIP. IDEA HILANG. DAMN :3

bulan lepas pergi terengganu dengan krew PMS.POLYTRAVEL. i will tell you more about PMS.POLYTRAVEL in my next entry. not this time. haha. i gained a lot of new things from there. met the Exco Keusahawanan negeri Terengganu. talked about our poly product with Pengarah dan Timbalan Pengarah Politeknik Malaysia. Syazani Ilyia semakin membesar dengan jayanya. She get whats the things she really want. Finally. let me share some of photos when i was there with my team

kami buka booth Polytravel. We sell tourism package. so siapa plan nak p melancong bole contact dengan lia. my team will provide the best package for you. we provide package based on your budget. 

[ I'm the tiny one, looks so small between them but not my spirit :3 ]

has been choose by them to talk about product to the Pengarah Poli and Exco Keusahawanan Negeri Terengganu. weh gigil bhaiii masa tu, the Exco said this to me ;

next time bila bercakap make sure smooth. don't show that you are afraid. It's ok to make a mistake cause from the mistake you'll learn it. sambil senyum lalu Beliau berlalu pergi >.<

first n new experience :D

let's talk about the others things.

Next sem dah praktikal. maka ketahui lah korang takkan menemui lia utk tempoh 6 bulan ni kat bumi Batu Pahat  sebab dengan rasminya Lia akan ke Perak Darul Ridzuan. I bet all my readers will said

bapak jauh siak
weh batu pahat takde ke
weh kau sorang kat sana, bole ke idop?

come on gais. sampai bila nak hidup bawah ketiak mak? masa belajar ni la masa untuk meng explore. dah lama niat nak duduk jauh dengan ibu. i want to survive with myself. no worry. imma big girl. i know how to take care of myself. just doakan yang baik untuk lia dan moga lia ditemukan dengan orang- orang yang baik kat sana. tapi satu je tak minta, moga tak jumpa jodoh orang sana. sebab sian abang sayang bandar Triang meroyan nanti. HAHA :3

bilik sewa dah settle semua. tinggal nak bayar deposit je. hujung bulan 11 dah berangkat ke sana. just wish me luck ya :*

September brings something bad to me and adik. Again. Its attacked to our mom and this things is definetely brings a bad effect to me and adik. semoga ibu cepat sihat. I cant stand myself from keep strong anymore. seeing her like that its makes me feel

kau nak apa siaaaaaaaa sebenarnya? why you keep disturbing my mom? With God name, she never disturb anyone. For her retire life she never disturb people. kenapa asik nak hentam dia?

its really shits ok. semoga kau mati tanah tak terima kau. 

im  tired to being strong. its 12 years already and the happiness never meets us :( . I'm just hope Allah will grant something nice or good or sweet to me n my family especially to my adik. May Allah reward somethings to her for all her patiently to take care of my mom when I was in poli. at least, adik dapat result cemerlang untuk SPM dia. *sigh*

and every time im feel lost, Affiz will never leave me alone. he tried hardly to make sure I'm ok. He tried very hard to make sure his Qiy will smile back after she cried. he keep saying this

i know you are strong, thats why Allah choose you to get his test. i know my girl is very strong girl. she will definetely can overcome all the problems that she gets. just be strong Qiy. do not feel easily to give up. Allah murka. Setan suka. nak kawan dengan setan ke? Kalau Affiz kat tempat Qiy Affiz tatau Affiz kuat ke tak macam Qiy. Qiy dah sampai kat sini, means Qiy sangat lah kuat. Im so proud with you. I get someone yang lagi banyak masalah hidup dan sangat tau macam mana nak atasinya. keep it up girl. No worry, Affiz ada je dengan Qiy. 

oh this guy never failed makes me smile back :(  he is my inner strength after my tears.

i talked too much n i think i should be stopped rn. btw, mohon budi baik korang untuk doakan ibu lia cepat sembuh ya. i miss her cooks so much. i miss for having argument with her. i miss the moment when i can talk to her for non stop.

ibu apis kan dia
ibu nak tau ari tu apis
ibu ada budak kls akak kan dia
ibu masak apa arini bu
ibu here, ibu there.

*tears burst*

Selamat Hari Raya Qurban korang.

Adiossa